Yesterday my wife and I attended a funeral for a photographer friend, Steve Grubman.
The room was packed with some three hundred of his friends and family. It was a testimonial
that Steve accomplished what I hope to do, is to had gone through life making may friends
and to be able to others with their journey.
        The Rabbi compared Steve’s life as taking and making a photograph. He reminded us
we once develop the film, and sometimes waited mor than a day to see the actual photograph. Photography was a chemical process, but in reality it was a platform for living one’s life. It take
a life processes to DEVELOP who we really are. Steve was not only a successfull photographer but he taught me that your real Earthly wealth are your family and friends. Your job is never your job but your Process. We can not always be a Polaroid or a digital image, the process is a life time formula.
        With tears slowly drowning my eyes, I held my wife’s hand and see why Steve wanted us to listen to one of his favorite’s song, Bob Dylan’s (Visions of Johanna). I knew that my life was not about my physical wealth but about the song I wanted my friends and family to listen to at
my final get together. Simon and Garfunkel’s “Bridge Over Troubled Waters”.
         Let the music beging and hopefully it will never end.

.      I had a great financial meeting yesterday. Our coach always saids som thing that stick in my head. Are we just about what we do with our minds? It occurred to me that being on
a journey is really where our mind takes us. Doing the same old thing and expecting results are just Habits that take us to no where. It’s a matter of finding the right habits that  take us to
to where we want and need to go.. It’s been a long journey for me, I realized that I found many new hats to wear. However not receiving a paycheck and having  to rely on my early social security and my savings has put a strain on my marriage. I feel so  bad that I did not make enough money so  my wife and I could retire RIGHT NOW. There is still time for me to figure things out. I need to change professions, switch from photography to the world of financials. I need to get my health and life insurance license so I will be able to help people with their financial foundations and educate people that you can take a one day class and start a new career without having to pay off a huge student loan. I feel so unhappy for not getting the results I wanted for my volunteer work and being a photographer’s representative. I will not abondoned these journeys but I need to concentrate and see if I can still be functional in society and be rewarded with a PAYCHECK. Tomorrow I have a group interview with a large electronics store. I can only hope they need my services.. Sorry Johnny Paycheck I will not just take this job and shove it. To me this will be  like going on a fishing trip. I don’t expect to catch any thing, but it will be fun to meet the recruiter and tell them  why I want to re-enter the work force. I think that my mind wants me to develop my next habit, is that I am very much capable to achieve my journey, again to make a living and help people with their goals.
    I would love to hear from other howiemauies about your habits and journeys. You can email me at [email protected] or call me at 1-630-202-1979. I sure would like to have others join me at our next financial meeting. Thank You coach for believing in me and showing me that I am a creatures of habit.

             Right now I feel like that I am on an island that will lead me to my next journey. I know in reality what I am really asking, when am I going to get my first Pay check. It’s great not having to do the long commutes to the city and counting all the pot holes, however the truth of the matter is that the clock is ticking and the choices are very slim.
             Almost every day is the same in front of my computer with my cup of coffee, but I started to realize that everything that I learned and accumulated has become my castle, my
attained foundation. I should start  thinking that my home(my castle) is really mycruise ship that that will take me on my voyage of happiness and fullfilment. I been on a cruise and I was not exacly impressed. At first it seemed prettey cheap, $65.00 a day. Wow I did not need a car, had all the food I could eat, entertaiment, photographers everywhere wanting to take my picture and of course seeing beautifull beaches, great swiming pools(crowded), new friends who promised to email you and never did, ——The LOVE BOAT—-, but at night I have to retreat back to my sardine can cabin and plan tomorrow’s adventure. Sure I took some great photos and was able to dance the Tango with my wife, but I soo realize that my home gave me amenities I forgot I had, and I never computed how much was I paying for my perpetual cruise(home) ship, the SSWWW.HOWIEMAUI.COM. After our cruise was over(Flight from Puerto Rico back to Chicago) with a $1000.00 discount was $2200.00. Don’t get me wromg, I did have a good time, but all the excusions, port fees, tipping at the end of the cruise and oh yeah I did buy two bottles of liquor which I could not drink  the ship made me realize that my home, my castle is a pretty good bargain after all.
                 When I got home I had a new perspective, I compared the costs between the Carribean cruise and living in my castle I knew it was time to break out one of the bottles
of liquor we brought home and open up a can of King Oscar Sardines and celebrate that
we just turned our castle into a crusie ship. Hopefully it can take me in mind and spirit to ever where I hope to go. —-Cheers to Issac and Captain Steubing.-Welcome to my new Love Boat.-
and my once castle.