Went To Church Tonight For Holy Thursday, Feel Like Crap.

I was suppose to feel grateful tonight, our choir is learning to sing small excerpts of Handel Messiah, “Behold The Lamb of God”, but it seems that today was not an especially a good one, the wife of a photographer I had the honor of assisting in the 1970’s, only a year younger than, a promising artist, a marathon runner, a former model, a mom, a good wife, and yet she died of cancer, it stopped me cold, and I then realize that maybe I should stop some of my projects, The Apple Founders Museum, helping photographers with their projects, wanting to make something happen, I know I am feeling sorry for myself and should be grateful, but like so many, it seems that at the end, like is not fair.

With the events this week, bombing Syria, having a press secretary saying that Hitler this not gas his people, just the Jews, United Airlines throwing a doctor out of their plane, and today we used our largest non-nuclear bomb on ISIS, it scares me that at any time either our government or an un-extpecting enemy will try or will destroy our country, maybe a cyber attack, everyone’s accounts will be hacked, stock market will then crash, maybe an attack on our electric grids, no electricity, medical epidemics, or just another White House Surprise, we are going to a bigger War again, World War III, more defense spending, more enlisted men and women,  and more rebuilding of our country. Hey isn’t this what the world is about? It’s them against the US.

Sorry Jesus, I certainly prayed and sang my heart out tonight, but I just could not get a Handel on it, and maybe I am waiting for another Messiah. Happy Easter and Passover to everyone.